Neurotic Writers R Us

Last night at the Oscars, Robert DeNiro said, “The mind of a writer can be a truly terrifying thing. Isolated, neurotic, caffeine-addled, crippled by procrastination and consumed by feelings of panic, self-loathing and soul-crushing inadequacy. And that’s on a good day.”

Romantic nonsense, I thought. Real writers get up in the morning, put our hands on the keyboard, and make some prose happen. We’ve got a job and we do it.

Went to bed last night and had this dream: I’m in a big bookstore with about 300 people in the audience. I answer a lot of nice questions and then push my luck by asking, “Is there anyone who didn’t like the book?” About 200 hands go into the air.

Woke up with feelings of panic, self-loathing and soul-crushing inadequacy.

Epitaph went to the publishers three weeks ago. I’m still waiting for a reaction. Can you tell?




5 thoughts on “Neurotic Writers R Us”

  1. Mary,

    This is one reason that I didn’t become a writer. Hang in there. I’m sure they’ll love it.

  2. It was too early to be caffeine-addled. Blogging that early means you don’t procrastinate much.

    The last half century or so has been neurotic in general.

    Waiting for editorial comments are really a bear especially when they don’t come quickly. As a government budget officer, I write fiction of a sort since budgets shape a would be future. My work dreams are a ‘beaut”. They are also an indicator that I need to take time “off”. hang in there

  3. Well, I’m thinking DeNiro didn’t write those silly remarks himself. And it’s sooo much more dramatic (complete with a smidgen of humor) to say something like that, rather than the simple, less-glamourous truth. Ahhh, Hollywood!

  4. You’ve never written a bad book, MDR. I am absolutely certain that Epitaph will be another great read from you, and I am looking forward to reading it, very much.

  5. Jackie of “You’ve never written a bad book, MDR. …” has it nailed for the past! When you get all done channeling Stephen King’s “Misery” for the day, Epitaph is great and very possibly your best so far!!!

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